Wednesday, November 7, 2012

I'm Reading As Fast As I Can



So, I am well into a few months since I turned 50.
I like to think about and reflect on this milestone.
I think about the last 50 years and can't believe how fast it went.




I remember the freedom of graduating from high school.
My first apartment.
The first man I fell in love with.
My first full time job.




Has it been 21 years since I had my first child.
It may have been 12 years since my husband left me with small children,
 but it has seemed like 100.
I am such a different woman now then the woman I was in my 20's. 
 But am I really that different?
I still think the same, laugh, love and hurt the same.
My morals haven't changed neither have my standards.
The only difference from then to now is I am more wiser.
I think before I leap.




I look different now.
Once a solid sheen of brown hair, has a few gray in it now.
A few extra pounds.  And I feel every pound.
Not much scares me these days.  Yet I worry.
I don't need Mom's advice as much nowadays.  But yet, I would give anything to live with her.




I was at the doctors last week and he said my blood pressure was too high.
That has me thinking very differently now.  I have to eat differently.  I have to slow down.
Mom has always said to me over the years....slow down girl, it is going to catch up with you later in life.
I guess this is that later in life.
Up until now, I have always lived life as fast as I could.
A bit of a wanderer, a bit gypsy.
But stable as a rock.
And you know what, I am okay with it.  I look forward to slowing down a bit.
Watch some TV, read some books, go exploring in my car, take long walks.




Just last month I do believe I have finally started Menopause.
Don't know a thing about it.  Not one thing.
I was telling my sister about this new change, she told me that she knew that woman going through the change lose sleep.  
Well.....now I know one thing.
Should I even be blogging about this subject?   




 These days I have so much on my mind. 
Turning 50 this past June has been interesting for me. 
Think I will grab a cuppa and start reading.

Diane

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9 comments:

  1. I am 55. Started menopause at 48. I can recall the very month of bad symptoms. Perhaps it will be smooth and easy for you. I think I'm coming out the other end of it now. I do believe the fifties are my favorite decade! Have learned a lot and lived a lot and learned to stop and smell the roses.
    Brenda

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  2. It's so strange when your always sturdy body starts to fail you. Like you, I've pushed mine with never a thought about backs or sleep or aches and pains. It didn't catch up with me until 60. You are very wise to start pampering yourself a bit now! ~ Maureen

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  3. I turned 50 in June too! I feel so much younger, and I am sometimes shocked when I quickly catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror or window. I haven't started menopause yet - but I hope Brenda's right, and the 50's will be my favorite decade. I feel like I am just finding myself and my dreams, and I wish I could get 30 years back (knowing what I do now).

    Gloria

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  4. Well Diane, start looking after yourself now. Exercise, eat well and rest. By the time you're over 60 it will get harder to do. I'm speaking from experience! lol Hugs, Pamela

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  5. Go and enjoy your book, sweet lady, and relax a bit.

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  6. Lets see....when I turned 50..5 months later I was told I had a form of pancreatic cancer...NO ENERGY, ANEMIC, lost 50 lbs, and lost half of my gorgeous, thick dark hair..basically given a death sentence. Here I am 4 yrs later...HEALED, HEALTHY, normal weight and most of my hair back. GOD IS GOOD! Don't fret the little things...take care of yourself and enjoy life! I AM! From one sweetie to another~~~Roxie

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  7. Wow I think Roxie's comment says it all. Relax and enjoy life as much as you can, and be good to yourself! I haven't hit the menopause yet myself (at 52) but from what I hear, each woman has her own unique experience. I suppose like childbirth?

    I have lots of grey hairs now that I didn't have 10 years ago. I used to tell my children that you earn each one of your silver hairs by doing good deeds! Hee hee... I'd like to think it's true!

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  8. Ah the joys of menopause. At 61 I still feel many affects from it. And yes, loosing sleep is a factor for sure. Oh how I hate those nigts of insomnia.
    Maybe I just as well get up and Read.
    I think it is so true, that even though we age, we feel many things the same way.
    But we also recognize the differences and I like my new found WISDOM.
    ha ha...reminds me of something my mom said to me a few days ago. She said "well, you know I told you".
    And I said..."mom, when did I ever listen to you"...and we both laughed

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  9. I have that milestone birthday coming up next year. I think Gloria, above, is right about feeling younger, until you see yourself in the mirror!

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