So, I am well into a few months since I turned 50.
I like to think about and reflect on this milestone.
I think about the last 50 years and can't believe how fast it went.
I remember the freedom of graduating from high school.
My first apartment.
The first man I fell in love with.
My first full time job.
Has it been 21 years since I had my first child.
It may have been 12 years since my husband left me with small children,
but it has seemed like 100.
I am such a different woman now then the woman I was in my 20's.
But am I really that different?
I still think the same, laugh, love and hurt the same.
My morals haven't changed neither have my standards.
The only difference from then to now is I am more wiser.
I think before I leap.
I look different now.
Once a solid sheen of brown hair, has a few gray in it now.
A few extra pounds. And I feel every pound.
Not much scares me these days. Yet I worry.
I don't need Mom's advice as much nowadays. But yet, I would give anything to live with her.
I was at the doctors last week and he said my blood pressure was too high.
That has me thinking very differently now. I have to eat differently. I have to slow down.
Mom has always said to me over the years....slow down girl, it is going to catch up with you later in life.
I guess this is that later in life.
Up until now, I have always lived life as fast as I could.
A bit of a wanderer, a bit gypsy.
But stable as a rock.
And you know what, I am okay with it. I look forward to slowing down a bit.
Watch some TV, read some books, go exploring in my car, take long walks.
Just last month I do believe I have finally started Menopause.
Don't know a thing about it. Not one thing.
I was telling my sister about this new change, she told me that she knew that woman going through the change lose sleep.
Well.....now I know one thing.
Should I even be blogging about this subject?
These days I have so much on my mind.
Turning 50 this past June has been interesting for me.
Think I will grab a cuppa and start reading.
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.....who knows maybe I'll throw in a book, have lots these days! :))